Everytime i see Louis, i would say "Louis, happiness is ... " then he have to answer "Happiness is a choice. i choose to be happy". Sounds stupid but the point to let him be reminded that he is the one to dictate his own life and mood. I dont know if it helps him in a way or another.. but my preaching certainly have not reach my own heart. there i m, telling ppl that they can choose their own mood for the day, yet here i m, always allowing my mood to be dictated by others.

I felt guilty of that. Why is it that i cant remind myself that i can always choose to be happy, regardless of all the obstacles that's flying towards me? There's no way we could avoid all unhappiness. But im sure there's ways to face all obstacles with an open and optimistic mind. That's my aim for myself from now on. Hard as it may be... but ya, i hope i can do it. I want to learn to be strong and have confidence in myself. I hope i wont be such a perfectionist and be hard on myself. Some things are not within our control.. let it go. There may be people out there, waiting 24hrs just to catch me committing mistakes but it is ok.. let them be.

Anyway i was watchin Ren Ci just now.. and i was really touched by Ming Yi Fa Shi. I was so worried for him, he seem to be in great pain. Though he couldnt complete the mission but i totally salute his determination and selfless mind. Actually i think this mission is kinda dangerous.. what if he encounters breathing difficulties? I dont think anyone can be fast enough to save him. Anyway.. he's safe now. so still ok. hahaa. Ya.. lets hope the priest can rest well and be free fr muscle ache. :p

Oh.. junhong invited me to amanda's bday party yday. Weird right.. not his party lor. But anyway i went. Saw a lot of the ex 2i1 kids. A little sad cause some of them are too shy to talk to me, esp roy. Jon was ok.. still tt chatty and mischievous. hahaha grew a little taller. The happiest thing is still to see junhong. This boy has really grown more sensible. A little taller also.. but very skinny. I bet he is not taking gd care of himself! His voice is deeper now. Still not very gentleman but have improved slightly. At least he knows how to respect me. tt's gd enough for me already i guess hahhaha. He treats me quite well i think.. quite obedient. And what else.. mm. Yah he told me smthg abt himself and tt touched me a lot. And i feel happy for him fr the bottom of my heart. Lets hope things will go well for him!

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