21 10 08

Totally forgot that it is mummy's bday until late afternn when i saw the date! Quite paiseh but i managed to wish her happy birthday over the phone. I think that, as one grows older, it gets more embarrassed to wish my parents things like that or to do childish or sweet things in front of them.

I hesitated for very long before i drove to TM to get my fav choc exotic for my mummy. And as i drove back home, i got a little nervous. How to present the cake to her? Shd i light up the candle? Must i sing her a bday song? How would she react? Luckily i could bring myself to light up the candle and stood by the stairs as she walked up. Well, i din sing her any songs la.. i was in fact acting as if i was in a hurry! Cause im afraid the cake will melt hahahaa.

Mummy was happy, i know. And that made me feel good and that what i did seem correct. And you know what? As a woman feels doted, she will treat you nice. Hahahaa im talking about my mother. I was treated nicely all night long.. well done. hahahahaa how i wish i can feel this happy everynight at home! :p

I feel rather tired at work. It seems like fighting the battle on my own. With advisers that use their mouths only. With opponents who never fail to give me lotsa troubles. I love my job but this helpless feeling is fading my love for the job. Perhaps im not that capable and independent afterall..

I miss Fredy. I wonder how is he now... And i hope Rahman will stay. If he leaves, i foresee the helpless feeling to increase like no one's business. But tt's life la.. people come and go.

Oh Kahyang is so interesting.. he told me lotsa things about my Water element. things i should do.. things i shouldnt do. I shall follow his advice to see if things change for the better! :p

Time is never enough. I havent prepare the notes for next week... :( i havent get to meet many of my friends.. like eileen zeff xjw jason weilin gillian dominic weeleng etc. Gosh... yet i spent lotsa time on dvd everynight. Hahah ironic.

Alright.. if u know me well, you should know im logging off now to watch dvd!

Nitez!