Presented the digital photo frame to xiao lao ban and i guess he likes it a lot. I hope he will enjoy reading our farewell messages! It took me quite some time to get all done.

After the lunch, si'en, marie, eug and i headed to penisula plaza. Got eugene his bday gift.. nothing surprisingly.. a pair of sports shoes!

Headed to grandma's place and saw auntie and her family there. she insisted i join them for dinner.. so i informed mummy and went ahead.

Apparently my mum was furious. I got a real scolding when i called her on my way home. You know la, the words she use are really harsh. She said i have never cared for the family. She said i have never followed any of her instructions. Bla bla bla. I felt accused and i rebut (or rebutted?).. she refused to listen.

It was terribly hurting. I got my 2nd round of scolding upon reaching home. It was horrible. :( She slammed the door whenever possible. Haix.. i dont have the mood to even pack up to go hongkong, a trip which i have been looking forward to.

I reflected and ya i guess, im partly at fault. But i feel she is at fault too. It all boils down to ineffective communication all these years. If you are about to advise me to have a good talk with her, open up, be frank bla bla bla, thank you but no thanks. These are just Ke Tao Hua to me. I know her well.. her temper is one of the worst i have ever encounter.

I'm so glad im leaving spore in about 9hrs time.. i can forget all the unhappiness i have been bottling (is there such a word?) all these while. Never say doesnt mean im a happy girl. I just dont know what's going on.

If i can make a wish with regards to kinship.. i would really hope my mother can one day think in my point of view. think why i dislike staying at home alone, think why im not close to anyone of them, think why i didnt take much initiative, think why i always hang out with my friends, and think why i'm never proud to have her as my mother. On my side, i will try to think from her perspective as well.

See i'm so right. We quarrel every school holidays. It just gotta happen.

Counting down to stepping out of my house at 440am.